Te-am visat in ultimele nopti

Una dintre primele noastre discutii a fost despre faptul ca timpul este relativ si exista doar in imaginatia noastra. Pe parcurs insa am dus ideea pana la gandirea ca impreuna avem oricat de mult timp ne dorim, atata timp cat vrem sa Il impartim unul cu celalalt.

Dorinta de a ne da timp, inca persista, dar lumea si imprejurimile in care traim ne demonstreaza ca nu sta totul in puterea noastra – oricat de mult ne-am dori.

Tu vei pleca in curand, iar eu voi ramane. Stiu ca ma iei cu tine – o parte macar; stiu si ca o parte din tine ramane cu mine, in acelasi oras, in aceeasi tara care ne-a consacrat. Dar tu vei pleca in curand, iar eu voi ramane.

Te-am visat in ultimele nopti. Am visat cum plecai, dar chiar daca stiam ca esti tu, in vis erai mereu alta persoana. Alte persoane care au plecat sau carora eu le-am intors spatele in trecut.

Daca as fi un Sigmund Freud, as trage concluzia ca visele recente scot la iveala o teama de parasire sau rani ce poate au fost cu timpul doar peticite dar nu pe deplin vindecate.

Fiind insa un simplu muritor, cred ca ele imi arata doar refuzul meu de a accepta realitatea de care ne lovim pe tot parcursul vietii: realitatea in care nu putem controla cine pleaca si cine intra in viata noastra.

Nu vrem sa tragem concluzia ca o data ce vei fi plecat, nu ne vom mai revedea, dar nici nu ne putem permite luxul de a astepta ca drumurile noastre sa se intalneasca din nou. Putem trai insa in dorinta.



How to silence your mind

Everyone needs sometimes a day off from everything. That day when we just don’t want to do anything except relaxing. Maybe take a book and read it in the park or just be a motionless body laying in bed the whole day. We just want to stop our day-to-day life and do nothing.
Easy to say but hard to do, because you are not left alone and start hearing it again. That condescending bastard voice deep inside your head. “You can’t stay and loose the whole day. You have a deadline on Monday on that project, you need to wash the dishes, you need to solve that problem, you can’t forget that you have to feel miserable for everything that happens in this world; but this day, this life, is not yours!”

It’s the voice that refuses to be quite for more than two minutes. That voice that you are speaking in your head. And damn, but that voice is annoying!

I had this problem for most of my life but especially when I was concerned about something or had problems of some sort. In my head there was a loud nightmare that was not letting me do anything properly and most of all, was not allowing me to enjoy happiness or find peace. Step by step I found ways of bringing that voice to an acceptable tone or at least I learned how to cohabit with her. This is what helped me do so:

  1. Ham Sah – Ham Sah – Ham Sah

You guessed it right. Meditation is the key.
I was skeptical in the beginning too. Especially being from Romania, a country in which many people are still wrongly associating Yoga and consecutively meditation, to an idol-worshiping-sex-sect-movement from the 90’s, I was skeptical. Surving through some difficult times though, I said to myself that I have nothing to lose by trying it since I already am my personal sex slave, but that’s another story.

Don’t get me wrong, I am not and I never were a hardcore meditator. Sometimes weeks are passing by without meditating, but after I started meditating, indeed, some kind of magic happened. By practising it (even sporadically), it helped me find a calmness that I haven’t experienced before. I can’t say that I had transcendental experiences, but I was able to achieve that not-thinking-of-anything state that I was searching for and with it, I was able to reflect on the things that concerned me the most, solve them and go on with my life. You may also be skeptical, but trust me and give it a try.
You can find a simple tutorial on how to mediate here.

  1. Let’s get physical, physical (sorry, couldn’t help it)

Except the fact that starting to do exercises or just being an active person is good for your health, it is also good for your mind. By doing sports, your brain creates a higher amount of endorphin, serotonin and dopamine. In easy words, dopamine is the substance that gives you a rewarding feeling (in this case from achieving an exercise goal), serotonin gives you the sensation of achievement and endorphin, the ultimate feeling of happiness. Besides feeling good during and after you did sports, your mind is also in a tranquil state and lets you relax without boycotting your vibe.

  1. Stop overthinking

Overthinking is a natural tendency of our brain and of our day-to-day life. Most of the times we are thinking of the past and of all the things that we could have done better. In many of my previous posts, I gave one advice that helped me the most: If you can’t control or change things that happened or will happen, accept them as they are and stop thinking about them. You need a bit of practice to be fully able to apply this in all matters, but it will come with time. You must keep some things in mind that will help you on this path: forgive yourself for the things you have done or failed to do; accept the fact that not all problems have a solution that is suitable for you; when in need, go back to the 1st point and start meditating.

  1. Smile. Smile a lot.

As controversial as this line is, it’s totally applicable for this point: Fake it ’till you make it!
It has been scientifically proven that the grimaces that your face does when smiling, creates a higher amount of the Endorphin and with it, it gives you a positive and happy state of mind. By smiling a lot, I also mean smiling at life and seeing it in a positive way. See the good side in everything that happens to you and don’t let your mind bring up only the negative parts out. Smile when things happened, so everyone will ask themselves what you know, that they don’t.

As a conclusion, think of your mind as being an outdated program that is always generating contradictory errors with your consciousness. Errors that only you can fix. You will never be able to silence your mind completely and you shouldn’t either, because by hearing her out, sometimes you will understand what your concerns and challenges are all about. By not knowing them, it is not possible to solve and overcome them.

Life is not perfect and your mind will always try to remind you that, but life is also beautiful in all of its forms and this – you have to remind your mind.


Nu ti-am mai scris de mult

Nu ti-am mai scris de mult. Nu stiu de ce. Probabil trairiile recente mi-au golit temporar cerneala din stiloul care asternea adineaori randuri peste randuri, pagini peste pagini. Cuvinte adresate tie, mie, tuturor si nimanui. Nu le-am mai pus pe foaie. Cel putin nu atat de des pe cat mi-as dori.

Motivele sunt diverse, daca as sta sa le caut. Pretiosul timp liber, e mereu inglodat in datorie mintii mele prea agitate. El ar fi motivul cel mai des intalnit in fuga asta de colo, colo. Pe zi ce trece imi dau seama ca El se scurge tot mai repede. Fie ca imi ocup viata cu prea multe lucruri ce ma tin vesnic preocupat, fie sunt prea obosit si aleg sa boicotez stilolul care asteapta anxios pe birou.

Am pornit de curand pe un drum lung, care are ca tel si sfarsit, exact ceea ce duc lipsa in prezent: din belsug, timp pretios pentru stilou si timp sa imi asez gandurile in sertare.
Drumul, insa, e lung si pana voi castiga cursa cu timpul, voi fi fara timp mereu. Asa ca te intreb: tu crezi ca e bine sa renunt o perioada la ce imi e mai drag, doar pentru a recastiga la sfarsit, ce pierd pe parcus? Chiar daca finish’ul promite sa umple toate lipsurile si provocarile prezentului? Dar daca pierd stiloul sau cerneala din el pe drum?

Probabil trebuie sa ne fie greu uneori, ca sa ne dam seama cat de bine ne e, atunci cand ne e bine. Riscuri avem la fiecare pas, dar daca nu le asumam, nici nu inaintam.

A trecut o perioada lunga de cand nu ne-am vazut. Imi e dor de noptile ce le petreceam in jurul unui foc cu jaratec incins, pasand de la unul la celalalt o tigara si povesti aprinse, dar cred ca cel mai dor imi e sa fim tacuti impreuna si sa lasam lumea din jurul nostru sa faca galagie.

Cu drag,


When disaster strikes and your world is crumbling

According to Murphy’s law, everything that can go wrong, will go wrong at some point or the other. In many cases, this is indeed the truth. We can’t control everything in life, even if we would wish it. One of the biggest difference between men, is how we cope with disappointments or with failures.

Some people stop their efforts at the first rock on the road, while others see it as a motivation to go further and transform each obstacle into a step. 

The difference between us is the way we are seeing life or in the way we understand what is happening to our efforts or plans.

We can sleep well at night if we think that the world is perfect and Karma is the power that spins the world, but as we see every day, this is not the case.

The solution is always the same, the solution is acceptance, that if something is not in our power to change, we have to accept it and move on. I am not talking of the idealistic concepts that everything is possible as long as we wish it or that we should not accept a “no” for an answer etc, etc, etc. I am talking about real life. Where a car is breaking down when you are on an Eurotrip, when due to an accident you can’t arrive at your sister’s wedding ceremony or when you scheduled a big event and you have to cancel it because of who knows what reason. I am aware that those are not life changing events that will haunt us for eternity, but the way the little things make our journey worth living, those little accidents can make it worst sometimes.

Life is not fair and it never will be. We have to accept it as it is and make the best out of it. Happiness is a self induced feeling but so is anger or what we feel when we are disappointed or experience failure.

 Stop promoting negativism in your life. I know it is not possible to be always in good spirit, but when disaster strikes, take a break, breath deeply and overcome it, no matter what it takes or how much time. Overcome it!

You have the power to do so. You always had.

Remember your past experiences and how much you have learned from them. Remember that when those happened, you felt that the word is crumbling under your feet. Time has passed since then and now you see them as experiences that forged your character. Keep that in mind each time a new problem appears. It will help you understand it and help you move on.

You have the key to everything. You are the God of your life.

Iubirea e supraevaluata

Mi-ai spus ca iubirea e supraevaluata, ea de fapt constand doar in conventii sociale. Nu te-am contrazis, dar nici nu am putut sa iti dau dreptate. Mai degraba m-a amuzat si m-a pus pe ganduri.
Probabil asa vezi tu lucrurile pe care nu le intelegi sau lucrurile pe care nu ai apucat sa le cunosti in plina forma pana acum.

Nu am intrat cu tine in polemica pentru ca m-am gasit in aceeasi situatie de mai multe ori, dar in acele dati am incercat sa ii explic orbului, cum arata culoarea. Nu am avut succes prea mare nici atunci.

M-am razgandit insa, vreau sa incerc sa iti explic.

Din pacate, multi trec prin viata fara sa intalneasca culoarea. Ei cred de multe ori ca o vad, ca o simt, ca o ating, insa doar cei care ulterior se indragostesc cu adevarat, isi dau seama ca pana atunci, totul a fost un joc pregatitor si in multe cazuri, o minciuna pe care si-o repetau mereu in gand (o iubesc, ma iubeste), poate motivele fiind chiar acele conventii sociale.

E drept ca fiecare om iubeste altfel si poate noi, cei care am avut mai mult noroc sa iubim, dam cu judecata prea usor, dar e la fel de adevarat ca omului care iubeste, i se citeste in ochi flacara, pasiunea si de ce nu, culoarea care eclipseaza viata.

Asa cum te-am intrebat pe tine, am intrebat si pe alte persoane daca iubesc. Multi mi-au raspuns ‘da’. Ulterior i-am intrebat daca sunt fericiti. Multi mi-au raspuns ‘nu’.
Eu sunt de parere ca una nu poate exista fara cealalta. Daca iubesti, esti fericit, daca nu o faci, nu esti.
Vei dezbate afirmatia asta si imi vei spune ca sunt o multitudine de oameni care isi iubesc partenerii mai mult ca orice, dar totusi nu sunt fericiti cu viata pe care o au, iar eu iti voi da dreptate. Insa prin afirmatia mea, nu ma opresc la iubirea amoroasa, ci fac referire la viata pe care trebuie sa o imbratisam si sa o iubim, oricum ar fi ea, buna sau rea. Cand ea va fi buna cu tine, vei cunoaste fericirea ca nici o alta data, iar cand ea nu va fi la fel de buna, iti va fi mai usor sa intlegi si sa accepti lucrurile pe care nu le poti schimba.

Putem trai in frica si sa fim incatusati de ea sau putem trai in iubire, liberi de constrangeri. Alegerea a fost si va fi mereu a noastra, chiar daca nu e vizibila pentru toti.

Sper ca circumstante favorabile te vor face sa iti schimbi parerea si intelegerea despre iubire. Nicidecum pentru a-mi da mie dreptate, dar pentru ca sa iti permiti sa iti dirijezi viata prin dragoste si nu prin conventii sociale. Pentru a putea vedea prin culoare, viata care e de-a dreptul un amalgam colorat, nu un tern social.


Cu drag



More was never enough

“Money is NOT EVIL by itself, its just paper with perceived value to obtain other things we value in other ways.

Evil is the unquenchable, obsessive and moral bending desire for MORE.
EVIL is the bottomless, soulless and obsessive-compulsive pursuit of some pot of gold at the end of some rainbow which doesn’t exist

EVIL is having a PRICE tag for your HEART and SOUL in exchange for Financial Success at ANY cost.

EVIL is trying to BUY happiness, again and again, until all of those fake, short lived mirages of emotions are gone.

YOU ARE NOW BROKE – all the money is gone, what do you have?
The only solution to your madness and happiness was acquiring MORE

Where are all the people NOW who you thought were your friends while the money was flowing in?
You might have lost your family, friends and mostly everyone in the world thinks you are a self centered, egotistical asshole.
Why? Because of YOUR endless pursuit for MORE clouded your mind and diverted you from your TRUE PURPOSE IN LIFE!



…I ALMOST SAID GOOD, but I say this ONLY because I want YOU TO CHANGE!!

I’m not saying you can’t be financially successful;
I’m SAYING HAVE A GREATER PURPOSE IN LIFE well beyond the Pursuit of Financial Success.

Your Soul is SCREAMING for you to answer your TRUE calling

You can CHANGE today if you redefine what SUCCESS is to you.
You can transform your damaged relationships and build new ones.
You can forgive yourself and others who’ve hurt you
you can become a leader by mentoring with others who you aspire to be like.
You can re-balance your priorities in life.
You can heal your marriage and recreate a stronger LOVE than you ever thought possible.

You can become the best parent possible at ANY age – even 86, but don’t WAIT until then…

You will always be able to make more money, BUT you CANNOT make more time.

One day, just like me, you will DIE too…
What do YOU want to be remembered for?
What can YOU do for others to make the world a better place?
What is YOUR true purpose on this Earth?

We are ALL dying – but only a small select few are truly LIVING.

You can step out of the Shadows into the LIGHT.
You were meant for GREATNESS
You were meant for MORE than just what you do for a living.
You are an eternal being meant to INSPIRE AND HELP THE WORLD!



regardless of how challenging your destiny and life will be…

The World really needs you now more than ever…
Together, with Love, Compassion and faith in HUMANITY, WE WILL DEFEAT EVIL, ONCE AND FOR ALL!”

Morgan Freeman – “More was never enough”



All I ever wanted, was the world

We drift in this beautiful life as strangers in the woods on a forgotten road, never knowing which direction we should turn and as a consequence we almost never understand what we truly want; what our ultimate dreams are or what we should expect from the almost never ending tomorrow morning.

We start a school that doesn’t interest us very much. We work a job that pays the bill, but that we don’t enjoy. We live in a place that doesn’t suit our needs anymore. We love a person that only exists in our mind. We shoot blank bullets on dreams and goals.

This cannot go on anymore! We have to decide what we want in life, it will not go on forever. The years are passing and our white hair starts growing. We don’t have time to loose or to donate to misery. We have to decide.

I firmly decided. I realized that all I ever wanted was the world.

I want to have everything that this life has to offer. I want to stop dreaming and start doing. I want to love, to dance, to laugh, to wake up hangover on the beach just because I can. Just because life can offer us everything, we have to take everything.

Why should we live in a shadow, when we can get a tan in the sun? Why should we accept what is given or ‘written’ for us, when we can create everything that we want, reach all goals that we set up for us? Why should we embark in this journey and not decide where we want to stop or decide when it’s time to drift further?

We shouldn’t! We should be the ‘writers’ of our book, not society, not strangers, not even parents or friends. We! We are the ones that can choose if we want to live in happiness or rot in non-fulfillment. We decide if we live this life or if we let it pass by.

So go! Decide, realize, think and then go and start living it.

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